Expressing the deceptiveness and fragility of our existence has always been most interesting for me. On the one hand, nature and reality fascinate me; with great joy and awe, I have been studying the rules of shadow and light, warm and cool colors, anatomy, and perspective; on the other hand, I can clearly see the ambiguity of our world; its multidimensionality shines through. How does one express that on a flat canvas? For me, painting is an attempt to reconcile the materialism and mysticism of our lives. At times there is a kind of magic, a poignant sensitivity in the most habitual things: a movement of the hand, a turn of the head, spots of shadow on a tablecloth. Sometimes God’s world in all its beauty reveals itself in the most unexpected moments. The autumn ...the evening fog enveloping the field, the river, the trees: the scene which cannot leave one indifferent, and I can't hold myself back; I make endless, desperate attempts to express this beauty on canvas.
Artist, 2004
Artist, 2004
Oil on Canvas, 90 x 100 cm
This is the portrait for my husband, Aydar. I painted him with his back turned to the viewer. He is still a mysterious personality for me. He is a real artist. He can spend hours, months trying to reach perfection. On the one hand, he clearly sees his artistic goals; on the other hand, he is constantly questioning his ideal. It is a portrait of an artist who has not started working yet. He is concentrated, delighted and enchanted by God's world.
Nest, 2003
Nest, 2003
Oil on Canvas, 100 x 120 cm
White colors are prominent in this painting. The girls' white attire unites them. They wear white and they are literally raised above the rest of the world, which symbolizes purity and innocence. At the same time, their detachment reflects a somewhat cold self-sufficiency. For me, personally, mutual understanding and trust among females is significant and very precious.
The Morning, 2004
The Morning, 2004
Oil on Canvas, 90 x 110 cm
The alternative name of the painting: Marfa and Maria. Two female characters in the painting are not opposed to one another, but coexist in harmony. Marfa and Maria, in their eternal femininity, are an integral part of world harmony. This painting was completed in my last week of pregnancy, when a woman is governed not by reason, but rather by instinct, when she becomes oblivious to the busy world around her, but is just waiting.
Cats3, 2008
Cats3, 2008
Watercolor, 45 x 65 cm
Cats. Slowly these small animals start taking up larger and larger portions of my life, attracting me with their harmony and beauty. To me, cats represent an immutable system. These creatures are appealing and intriguing because they represent an entire universe, a microcosm. Dogs were the ones which used to reign in my creative world. Now, as I have become self-sufficient, I need the society less and less. In a sense, I perceive my fascination with cats as a temporary isolation before the next creative leap.
Chess 1, 2002
Chess 1, 2002
Oil on Canvas, 100 x 120 cm
When I was a child, my father taught me the game of chess; it gradually turned into one of my most precious memories. Chess and childhood intertwined to become a single entity. Chess for me is Alice and the Looking Glass, Defense of Luzhin by Vladimir Nabokov. The aesthetics of chess involves accuracy, intrigue, romanticism and connection of epochs.
Chess 14, 2009
Chess 14, 2009
Watercolor, 80 x 60 cm
Chess Chess is an intellectual model of society, a reflection of the world. Players live out an entirely different story every game. For minutes, hours a player gains experience interacting with the other player, being in close contact with him. For me a player is a partner, an opponent, a coworker who gives me precious interaction, if only for a time. Players focused on the game command our admiration in that they follow certain rules, forming and developing unique relationships.
Central Square, 2001
Central Square, 2001
Oil on Canvas, 90 x 100 cm
This painting has a story of its own. In 1999, my friends and I traveled in time to a town of Veliky Ustyug. An ancient town, almost extinct, it became the main hero of my painting. A chair in the front is one of the numerous objects living their own life. At the same time it embodies loneliness and reminds us of an absent person.
Fog, 2001
Fog, 2001
Oil on Canvas, 90 x 110 cm
I was on a train to Murmansk. Very early in the morning, the train suddenly drove through a stretch of water and fog - it may have lasted just a minute or two, however, I can still feel a poignant charm of these moments. A mystery of this fog later penetrated into many of my paintings.
Puzzles, 2009
Puzzles, 2009
Watercolor, 60 x 40 cm
Communication in space. Labyrinths, puzzles, games of chess -- they reflect the individual realities that our moods create for us. This mysterious world of labyrinths attracts us, fascinates us, scares us at times... A labyrinth is a reflection of the human universe, where the traveler is on his way to perfection, to the Center. He searches for himself, for his paths, and gets to a dead end. He goes back and starts again. Two people moving along the labyrinth can hear each other, but may never meet each other, unable to touch. Going through a labyrinth is not unlike searching for one's destiny, living one's life, finding a way to one's goal. Puzzles are a search for harmony and perfection in one's inner world. This is a mood, a delicate combination of emotions, momentary splashes of joy, sadness, contemplation, alienation, delight. Every minute of life is filled with the specs of these feelings, and their combination is the spiritual tune of a person, his inner song.